Change

I just went and read a senior's first blog post. I look at it, stare at it, scrutinize it, and begin to wonder. When do we all just start changing so dramatically? Compared to now, his blogging from 2 years back or so seem so....... well, innocent?

Just exactly when do we change?

I've had a friend from primary that was nice, though she had big dreams of being 'popular'. Three years down the road, we don't really talk anymore, and my mum bumps into her mum. She's changed as well. Cares more about friends, cheerleading, and clubbing and being 'popular' rather than her studies. Definitely a 180 degree change.

Had some guy friends back from primary that were quite nice as well. Heard from someone that they've turned into absolute jackasses. Some friends, i don't keep into contact anymore, but certainly, they've changed as well.

In three years, we can change so much.

How many times we change is also quite something to behold sometimes.

Just how we change is the same issue as well.

We just change....... so much in so short a time.



I'm certain I've been changing all my life.




From a nonchalant and distant child who had no shame.


To an emo child for a good 2 years of my life.


Becoming quite an awkward, anime-loving teen.


To a mostly, responsible(I think), not so sociable, more jaded person who still likes anime but not so obsessively anymore( I think; see the insecurity? :p).


I don't hold a fascination for that much longer. I can't seem to get over the fact that people may be looking at me as if I'm a stupid idiot. I still think I don't meet the expectations of many people around me.





But I'm still changing.


I'm learning to speak, to think, to lead, to do everything that I need to do, to keep in time, to write more, to be more emphatic, to be more responsible........


Everyone is changing, getting older every year, getting wiser every year, maturing, making mistakes. That's what humans are made to do. And in the end, we all return to dust.



There's a list of things anyone could learn over time.


Whether we meet that list is a different matter.



But, we're still changing. We're still learning.



Some people haven't moved just yet.



But change? Change is definitely going to come.


Let's just hope that it's the right change.



Like his version better than the original :)