Memoirs from the day we were screwed over - 24th March

It had been a day like any other day, maybe just slightly more special (kay, very more special). Quote John: "District finals, people!"

Seriously there had been no indication that we would have lost. Not the atmosphere before, after and during the debate (in my opinion, we rocked). Maybe the day had known of our misfortune and had been weeping for us, but I wouldn't know.



But seriously, Lady Luck screwed us over.





We hadn't seen it coming. They hadn't seen it coming. Shock, no tears. yet.






When we had asked him what the hell we had done wrong, all that came out were half-baked answers. Things he said we hadn't done, yet we had.










In the end, we didn't lose due to being horrible; we lost because of the messy business known as the human mind.






To the Catholic team, I can't fault you. You didn't see this coming as well. Celebrate all you want. Just don't come TAUNTING AND GLOATING, because it doesn't help either of us.






There's no tears coming from me. The other members have shed enough.

This feeling may go away with time, but that still doesn't mean that I'm entirely happy with what happened.




I'm going to miss WIRA, but I'm not going to stop debating. I like it, and I want to continue. The memories I obtained from it were real. The memories mean more than the feeling I have now (just let me wallow for a while). And now that we have the chance, we'll take it.





KDU Debate, here we come.



We recover fast from defeat. That's all.

I know why I like rock more,
It is like a medley of life,
messy, noisy, screaming.
Venting anger and frustration for me.
(I was restricted from posting earlier, so sue me)

Somehow I'm feeling slightly.......blue today.



There are so many things I haven't done yet, and so many things I think I didn't do properly.



There really is no point over worrying, but still it doesn't get rid of the feeling. The restless feeling in your chest. 'S bad.



Debate......District finals. Catholic. Worry 1#.



Library.......MPS..........*fidget**worry**fidget*....... Worry 2#


Writing........ I haven't gotten anywhere -_-|||||| Worry 3#



There are a few other little matters, but still these three are still the largest.


One may say to focus on the bright side, but it doesn't mean the worry fades away.



One also says actions are better than words.



Maybe I'd feel better with more action, but then again.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.


Librarian one-day camp was fun (boring lectures on myriad of plants though) and I came home unable to walk the next day but still. I think I owe an apology to Pn. M. There were some things I could have helped better. I wasn't exceptionally alert.
















worry, worry, bubble, double,
flow, and flow, and gurgle, gargle.
over the pot and spill across,
the worry continues to frost.

I have to get into the grooovee.....

Humans are strange.









We make promises to ourselves, yet we don't keep them.













We say we want to do this yet we do that.









We hurt others yet hurt ourselves.








We portray confidence, yet have so much doubt about our own capabilities.







We say there's no hate, yet hate's rampart.




Good intentions turn out to be bad ones.




And in the end, the world goes round and round and round in an endless and confusing cycle.




Aren't we humans just simply contrary?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

i'm not feeling like my usual self, one knows

I AM FREE!

I don't know about all of you that are not in DJ, but.




EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





'Nuf said.






My predictions?

Add math - A breeze
Mod Math- Relatively fine
Bio - Yes, no
English - Forgot word count but who cares?
Malay- Hn. Teacher's too strict with marks
Chinese- Cross fingers.
Chem- Botched last question
Physics - Damn the pistol question
Moral -another walk in the park, though whether I walked the right path has yet to be seen
Sejarah- Give and take. No way to predict.




Some people may glare at me for saying all that, but hey, at least you tried your best :)






Exams are over, but debate and librarian and everything else is not.


Camp paperwork is done, but I WANT PIBG FUNDING. NO GIVE LIBRARIAN, NO GIVE PREFECT. FAIR AND SQUARE. prefects that actually see this blog I mean you no harm. yet.


Debating.............. No comment for now.



Sigh.


I'm getting lazy. There's a pile of work I haven't done (Not a mountain thankfully) yet I'm sitting in front of the PC watching Soul Eater and blogging.


Ah well.


One must enjoy life still :)