I just went and read a senior's first blog post. I look at it, stare at it, scrutinize it, and begin to wonder. When do we all just start changing so dramatically? Compared to now, his blogging from 2 years back or so seem so....... well, innocent?
Just exactly when do we change?
I've had a friend from primary that was nice, though she had big dreams of being 'popular'. Three years down the road, we don't really talk anymore, and my mum bumps into her mum. She's changed as well. Cares more about friends, cheerleading, and clubbing and being 'popular' rather than her studies. Definitely a 180 degree change.
Had some guy friends back from primary that were quite nice as well. Heard from someone that they've turned into absolute jackasses. Some friends, i don't keep into contact anymore, but certainly, they've changed as well.
In three years, we can change so much.
How many times we change is also quite something to behold sometimes.
Just how we change is the same issue as well.
We just change....... so much in so short a time.
I'm certain I've been changing all my life.
From a nonchalant and distant child who had no shame.
To an emo child for a good 2 years of my life.
Becoming quite an awkward, anime-loving teen.
To a mostly, responsible(I think), not so sociable, more jaded person who still likes anime but not so obsessively anymore( I think; see the insecurity? :p).
I don't hold a fascination for that much longer. I can't seem to get over the fact that people may be looking at me as if I'm a stupid idiot. I still think I don't meet the expectations of many people around me.
But I'm still changing.
I'm learning to speak, to think, to lead, to do everything that I need to do, to keep in time, to write more, to be more emphatic, to be more responsible........
Everyone is changing, getting older every year, getting wiser every year, maturing, making mistakes. That's what humans are made to do. And in the end, we all return to dust.
There's a list of things anyone could learn over time.
Whether we meet that list is a different matter.
But, we're still changing. We're still learning.
Some people haven't moved just yet.
But change? Change is definitely going to come.
Let's just hope that it's the right change.
Like his version better than the original :)
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
The Concept of Sleepovers
Definition of sleepover:the act of spending the night as a guest in another's house, especially the participants are children....
That sure says a lot about us teenagers that do this activity.
Seriously.
How many sleepovers has one been to?
I'm currently blogging from the second sleepover at a friend's house in my entire 16 years of life, and I got to tell you, the basic criterias of the sleepovers haven't really been met so far (well, based on what I believe about the stereotype of sleepovers...)
a) We've never lasted all the way up till morning (tho' me and Yean Yi are going to try for this one)
b) We haven't had a pillow fight. (like the ones you see in movies)
c) We haven't called and harassed someone in the middle of the night (another usual, i think)
d) We haven't really gossiped about people (that I'm not sure is staple)
e)............
In the end, I think I've just been loafing at someone's house.
And that is suppose to be fun for many teenagers my age.
Maybe it's just me.
I don't have anything to blog about
I can't wait for camp
Thursday, June 4, 2009
2nd Malaysian Habit O_o
Now, we know our race. Our Malaysian breed. Let's say we have many tricks up our sleeves. Many that even I don't know whether they help us or kill us.
Notably though, is the Malaysian sense of driving.
Maybe it was the weather, but on the Friday of the 1st Exam week something went terribly wrong with the heads of the parent-cum-chauffeurs and hired private vans.
They lost the ability to understand TRAFFIC LIGHTS.
SERIOUSLY.
The traffic light only has three colored lights. Red, green, and yellow (not in order).
Somehow, after years (or maybe just a few months) of driving and passing their driving license exams, knowledge seems to have flown out the window completely.
In their eyes:
Red = 'go'
Yellow='speed up'
Green = well, still 'go'
We all know the proper meanings, don't lie. But we also have the fantastic idea that it's fine not to pay a single bit of notice to the original rule.
Truly MALAYSIAN, isn't it? Like our habit not to read manuals (what does this button do?)
In the end, the only thing that happened was huge congestion and the possibility for a pedestrian student to get rammed down.
Cue case, 'mua. I got caught between a car that was not suppose to move and one that was suppose to move.
Luckily I came out unscathed.
But this is a nice way to teach kids how to respect the traffic isn't it?
'Son, make your own rules on the road. BEAT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT.'
Thank you, adults, for that wonderful, eye-opening lesson.
So you don't mind if I run that red light now?
Notably though, is the Malaysian sense of driving.
Maybe it was the weather, but on the Friday of the 1st Exam week something went terribly wrong with the heads of the parent-cum-chauffeurs and hired private vans.
They lost the ability to understand TRAFFIC LIGHTS.
SERIOUSLY.
The traffic light only has three colored lights. Red, green, and yellow (not in order).
Somehow, after years (or maybe just a few months) of driving and passing their driving license exams, knowledge seems to have flown out the window completely.
In their eyes:
Red = 'go'
Yellow='speed up'
Green = well, still 'go'
We all know the proper meanings, don't lie. But we also have the fantastic idea that it's fine not to pay a single bit of notice to the original rule.
Truly MALAYSIAN, isn't it? Like our habit not to read manuals (what does this button do?)
In the end, the only thing that happened was huge congestion and the possibility for a pedestrian student to get rammed down.
Cue case, 'mua. I got caught between a car that was not suppose to move and one that was suppose to move.
Luckily I came out unscathed.
But this is a nice way to teach kids how to respect the traffic isn't it?
'Son, make your own rules on the road. BEAT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT.'
Thank you, adults, for that wonderful, eye-opening lesson.
So you don't mind if I run that red light now?
seriously
parents these days
parents these days
Let's face the music people.
We are all bloody LIARS. In every sense of the word.
Don't think so? Then tell me the one time you haven't told a lie.
Unfortunately white lies count as well.
Sure sometimes we tell them to make sure we don't hurt someone's feelings, but you're still hurting them. Especially when they hear from someone else about the truth (seriously, man. That cape looks godawful on you.)
Hold on. You telling me you're not that kind of person?
Then let me tell you another way we lie.
We PROCRASTINATE.
Wait, you say. Doesn't procrastinate mean 'to put off something or delay it'? Doesn't that equal 'laziness', not 'lying'?
Why don't I put it into a different light.
Let me paint a household scenario. Mom asks you to wash your socks. You say that you have another week to school reopens so you have time.
Day 1: i want to watch tv. I''l do it later.
Day 2: I want to go out with my friends. I'll do it later.
Day 3: I want to use the PC. Do it later.
Day 4: Have to help do something else. No time.
Day 7: I can wear smelly socks to school. No need to do it.
We've lied haven't we? For 7 days, we lied that we'd do it the next day. In the end, we lied to ourselves that we have the time and effort and willpower to do it later. After all that time, NOTHING gets done. It's a wondrous lie isn't it?
One we always love to say.
Still shaking your head and saying you don't?
Well, good for you to that small factions for being a goody-goody. God up there will be proud of you.
To those other oblivious fools, congratulations.
You have carried on lying to yourself.
Good luck I bid to you as you dig your grave. 'Cause your going to need all that luck trying to get out of it when it's too late.
We are all bloody LIARS. In every sense of the word.
Don't think so? Then tell me the one time you haven't told a lie.
Unfortunately white lies count as well.
Sure sometimes we tell them to make sure we don't hurt someone's feelings, but you're still hurting them. Especially when they hear from someone else about the truth (seriously, man. That cape looks godawful on you.)
Hold on. You telling me you're not that kind of person?
Then let me tell you another way we lie.
We PROCRASTINATE.
Wait, you say. Doesn't procrastinate mean 'to put off something or delay it'? Doesn't that equal 'laziness', not 'lying'?
Why don't I put it into a different light.
Let me paint a household scenario. Mom asks you to wash your socks. You say that you have another week to school reopens so you have time.
Day 1: i want to watch tv. I''l do it later.
Day 2: I want to go out with my friends. I'll do it later.
Day 3: I want to use the PC. Do it later.
Day 4: Have to help do something else. No time.
Day 7: I can wear smelly socks to school. No need to do it.
We've lied haven't we? For 7 days, we lied that we'd do it the next day. In the end, we lied to ourselves that we have the time and effort and willpower to do it later. After all that time, NOTHING gets done. It's a wondrous lie isn't it?
One we always love to say.
Still shaking your head and saying you don't?
Well, good for you to that small factions for being a goody-goody. God up there will be proud of you.
To those other oblivious fools, congratulations.
You have carried on lying to yourself.
Good luck I bid to you as you dig your grave. 'Cause your going to need all that luck trying to get out of it when it's too late.
I need luck and willpower too :p
Thursday, May 28, 2009
My Unedited and Unabridged Version of Sulking
TO THE DEAR IDIOTS SITTING AT THE TOP UP THERE: (yes you, government)
In lieu with your decision to cap the subjects at 10, allow me, as a student about to take my SPM exam next year, to tell you how dismally stupid your idea is.
Firstly, the limit is too restricting. Please look at the urban schools as well besides your residential schools and rural areas. In the packages given to us by our schools, pure science streams and art streams have to take 9 subjects automatically. You're currently asking us to pick ONLY 1 subject like that. How is that fair and just for all students? What if I want to take English Lit because I like English? What if I want to take accounts because I'm considering being an accountant besides a doctor? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT? ARE YOU GOING TO SAY WE CAN'T DREAM AND HAVE CHOICES?
Next, what kind of gauge do you have that many students are taking so many subjects that they are overshadowing other students? You are only looking at EXTREME cases. I make friends with a lot of seniors, and the amount of subjects on average that they take are only 12. How many students are going to take 16 or more? Some extraordinaire can do it, but majority of us would get a brain hemorrhage from all that studying. You are being pessimistic in believing that all of us are crazy study freaks. For goodness sake, look at the bigger picture!
Furthermore, what gives you the right to decide how well we're going to cope with a subject? Just because 1 student can't handle 12, does that mean the rest of us can't? How is this going to benefit us when we're not allowed to learn what we want to learn? You are merely trying to blanket up what you think is a problem, and pass it off as a viable solution. What we can or cannot do is up to us to decide, not you. We know ourselves, we're old enough. If you think those residential students need help, give them APPROPRIATE HELP, not USELESS HELP.
Your reasoning for putting this unnecessary tight limit is because you say residential school and rural area school students don't have the facilities and the teachers, but doing this affirmative action isn't going to help anyone. You are merely smothering up the problems of the rural school and residential school students. They don't have the resources, GIVE THEM RESOURCES. Don't have the teachers? GET THEM THE TEACHERS. You are not solving anything by putting a cap on the entirety of students. Taking away the freedom of choice of students is not going to benefit who you want to benefit, because in the end, those students don't get to learn, they don't have your facilities, they still don't have your teachers. If that's the case 10's going to be a problem still. Are you going to lower the limit down to 6 then?
I don't deny that some students are a bit whack in taking that many and just for the As, but then this current cap doesn't solve your problem. If you don't want it to be about As, then use other factors as well. Take into account co-curriculum. Instead of marking and deciding scholarships based on As, do it an average mark basis. Take the amount of marks totalled from all the subjects that person took, and divide it by the number of subjects. But don't take away freedom of choice, or at least put a more feasible limit (12 is good).
I hope you people up there have ears, or else these voices down here aren't going to be pretty. (remember, we vote next election)
In lieu with your decision to cap the subjects at 10, allow me, as a student about to take my SPM exam next year, to tell you how dismally stupid your idea is.
Firstly, the limit is too restricting. Please look at the urban schools as well besides your residential schools and rural areas. In the packages given to us by our schools, pure science streams and art streams have to take 9 subjects automatically. You're currently asking us to pick ONLY 1 subject like that. How is that fair and just for all students? What if I want to take English Lit because I like English? What if I want to take accounts because I'm considering being an accountant besides a doctor? WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO ABOUT THAT? ARE YOU GOING TO SAY WE CAN'T DREAM AND HAVE CHOICES?
Next, what kind of gauge do you have that many students are taking so many subjects that they are overshadowing other students? You are only looking at EXTREME cases. I make friends with a lot of seniors, and the amount of subjects on average that they take are only 12. How many students are going to take 16 or more? Some extraordinaire can do it, but majority of us would get a brain hemorrhage from all that studying. You are being pessimistic in believing that all of us are crazy study freaks. For goodness sake, look at the bigger picture!
Furthermore, what gives you the right to decide how well we're going to cope with a subject? Just because 1 student can't handle 12, does that mean the rest of us can't? How is this going to benefit us when we're not allowed to learn what we want to learn? You are merely trying to blanket up what you think is a problem, and pass it off as a viable solution. What we can or cannot do is up to us to decide, not you. We know ourselves, we're old enough. If you think those residential students need help, give them APPROPRIATE HELP, not USELESS HELP.
Your reasoning for putting this unnecessary tight limit is because you say residential school and rural area school students don't have the facilities and the teachers, but doing this affirmative action isn't going to help anyone. You are merely smothering up the problems of the rural school and residential school students. They don't have the resources, GIVE THEM RESOURCES. Don't have the teachers? GET THEM THE TEACHERS. You are not solving anything by putting a cap on the entirety of students. Taking away the freedom of choice of students is not going to benefit who you want to benefit, because in the end, those students don't get to learn, they don't have your facilities, they still don't have your teachers. If that's the case 10's going to be a problem still. Are you going to lower the limit down to 6 then?
I don't deny that some students are a bit whack in taking that many and just for the As, but then this current cap doesn't solve your problem. If you don't want it to be about As, then use other factors as well. Take into account co-curriculum. Instead of marking and deciding scholarships based on As, do it an average mark basis. Take the amount of marks totalled from all the subjects that person took, and divide it by the number of subjects. But don't take away freedom of choice, or at least put a more feasible limit (12 is good).
I hope you people up there have ears, or else these voices down here aren't going to be pretty. (remember, we vote next election)
Saturday, May 16, 2009
The Problem With Exams
It isn't like me to go online on the Saturday just before exams start. Usually I'm forced to bunker in my room to study. Somehow or the other, I'm turning into quite the procrastinator.
But lets leave procrastination for a separate topic.
EXAMS.
1st, we are deprived of our usual entertainment (parents don't understand that teenagers don't study past 10 at night)
2nd, we are asked questions we wouldn't use in real life (seriously, what's the point learning how mitosis is performed)
3rd, it saps us of our strength (studying late nights is bad for our bodies...)
4th, we are plunged into boredom (no TV and PC allowed remember?)
5th, we are stuck with mental blocks (like mine in blogging rite now, that's why this topic)
EXAMS, BE GONE!
But lets leave procrastination for a separate topic.
EXAMS.
1st, we are deprived of our usual entertainment (parents don't understand that teenagers don't study past 10 at night)
2nd, we are asked questions we wouldn't use in real life (seriously, what's the point learning how mitosis is performed)
3rd, it saps us of our strength (studying late nights is bad for our bodies...)
4th, we are plunged into boredom (no TV and PC allowed remember?)
5th, we are stuck with mental blocks (like mine in blogging rite now, that's why this topic)
EXAMS, BE GONE!
dying to try
to put that extra mile
procrastination...
to put that extra mile
procrastination...
Saturday, May 9, 2009
On the matter of the past
Ah yes.
I forgot.
IIUM debate.
Time to come clean.
Well, it's not that extreme. Just I feel like blogging about it.
Let's start off with the most obvious point:
ALMOST EVERYONE AT THE DEBATE CAME DOWN WITH FOOD POISONING ('mua included)
it's never happened before, but lady luck dictates.
Poor IIUM people were scurrying around doing damage control.
now we move to the day by day chronicling :D
1st day
-long sleepy intro talk; slept then to replenish energy
-insistent LEO people calling (that was my fault though); problem was solved
-won both rounds of that day (1st round trashing[uniforms were a practical rehearsed topic thanks to wira]; 2nd round harder but was clear win)
-stomach still in good health because didn't go to banquet (thank the gods wherever they may be)
2nd day
-won 2, lost 1, final round was silent and left us worried (we lost the humor round, confound it)
-john was there for half the day and gave the judge that gave the win to the other team a poor score(didn't affect the poor man much since he was judging in the finals)
-quite snappish during the last prep round due to fatigue
-reached home at 12.30
-stomach had horrible adverse reaction 3 times in the middle of the night; clear signs o' diarrhea.
3rd day
-we broke 10th place and may have had to go against our sister(nay brother; they're mostly guys)team, but there was a miscalculation and we were re-ranked 11th(other team no change)
-got charcoal pill from Pn Angie and water retention pill from John. Siew and El found a quiet place for me(with diarrhea) and Daniel(high fever) to sleep till next round(at 2)
-unfortunately both teams lost at octo :(
-no worries. Cam hogged in the classroom afterward.
shit happens. But.
I don't regret it. seriously.
even though the school's not paying back my cash and I got scolded at by the LEO people.
still.
This is one of the best experiences I had.
it took the form 5 team to break 10th.
this year it took a form 4 team.
I see a bright future. No matter what anyone says about winning everything.
So. that's that.
I forgot.
IIUM debate.
Time to come clean.
Well, it's not that extreme. Just I feel like blogging about it.
Let's start off with the most obvious point:
ALMOST EVERYONE AT THE DEBATE CAME DOWN WITH FOOD POISONING ('mua included)
it's never happened before, but lady luck dictates.
Poor IIUM people were scurrying around doing damage control.
now we move to the day by day chronicling :D
1st day
-long sleepy intro talk; slept then to replenish energy
-insistent LEO people calling (that was my fault though); problem was solved
-won both rounds of that day (1st round trashing[uniforms were a practical rehearsed topic thanks to wira]; 2nd round harder but was clear win)
-stomach still in good health because didn't go to banquet (thank the gods wherever they may be)
2nd day
-won 2, lost 1, final round was silent and left us worried (we lost the humor round, confound it)
-john was there for half the day and gave the judge that gave the win to the other team a poor score(didn't affect the poor man much since he was judging in the finals)
-quite snappish during the last prep round due to fatigue
-reached home at 12.30
-stomach had horrible adverse reaction 3 times in the middle of the night; clear signs o' diarrhea.
3rd day
-we broke 10th place and may have had to go against our sister(nay brother; they're mostly guys)team, but there was a miscalculation and we were re-ranked 11th(other team no change)
-got charcoal pill from Pn Angie and water retention pill from John. Siew and El found a quiet place for me(with diarrhea) and Daniel(high fever) to sleep till next round(at 2)
-unfortunately both teams lost at octo :(
-no worries. Cam hogged in the classroom afterward.
shit happens. But.
I don't regret it. seriously.
even though the school's not paying back my cash and I got scolded at by the LEO people.
still.
This is one of the best experiences I had.
it took the form 5 team to break 10th.
this year it took a form 4 team.
I see a bright future. No matter what anyone says about winning everything.
So. that's that.
all you people
who believe that winning is everything
go f*&^ off
cause you don't know the true meaning
of experience.
who believe that winning is everything
go f*&^ off
cause you don't know the true meaning
of experience.
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